I never taught that I would end up be in this situation. I wish Blake was here to talk to. Its so hard to manage time with Going class+Dota+Girl+Eat+Sleep+Chores+Work.... I cant seem to manage the time well enough to please everyone arround. Sometimes, I just wish that I can sleep less a day.
I havent been in class for 5 times and my parents are making a heck of a big deal out of it. I know no matter wat reason i might come out with its still an excuse. Wat more to tell them other than i am sorry? I havent been a good child to them, as I wasnt at the top of my class, being an obedient child, or even managing my money well enough. Why cant i just want a simple life. Chasing a dream and a vision that is just beyond, just makes me so tired sometimes.
I have to please everyone, and at the end of the day, i disappoint everyone. I wont run away from the problems that i caused, and i just got to say, I'm sorry.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Sorry Bloggie
I left this blog for sometime SORRY*. It has been a busy time for me. Normal college semester of 3-4 months are all squeezed up in just 7 weeks. Its a heck of a deal when this is my last chance to turn over a new leaf.
Well, Penny left yesterday and it seems so quiet in the room without her arround. Ofcourse since she was staying over for about 3 weeks. Hope she is all well and good back home.
I remembered 1 day when i was going through my e-mails, I saw a mail about plastic surgery. Hmm.. The difference it made for the girl in that picture was HUGE! Then something occured in my mind. Are these people accepted from the society? It might change how people look at you (first sight) but what is the point of hiding from what you are born as? I tought for awhile, and its just outrageous how people are going just to be noticed. Just want to be out from the shadows of society.
I wondered again, what happens to the perceptions of their loved ones? I tried to put myself in that shoe and I came to my own conclusion : The desperation of attention and self-esteem has brought them to this stage in life. In this world of "Masked" people, we can never be who we are because we are not living in this world on our own.
Living life with no boundries is almost everyones dream~ So am I!
Well, Penny left yesterday and it seems so quiet in the room without her arround. Ofcourse since she was staying over for about 3 weeks. Hope she is all well and good back home.
I remembered 1 day when i was going through my e-mails, I saw a mail about plastic surgery. Hmm.. The difference it made for the girl in that picture was HUGE! Then something occured in my mind. Are these people accepted from the society? It might change how people look at you (first sight) but what is the point of hiding from what you are born as? I tought for awhile, and its just outrageous how people are going just to be noticed. Just want to be out from the shadows of society.
I wondered again, what happens to the perceptions of their loved ones? I tried to put myself in that shoe and I came to my own conclusion : The desperation of attention and self-esteem has brought them to this stage in life. In this world of "Masked" people, we can never be who we are because we are not living in this world on our own.
Living life with no boundries is almost everyones dream~ So am I!
Monday, September 1, 2008
Just what i needed
Tomorrow is going to be the start of something new. New course, new college, new friends, and a new environment. This is it, I will make it.
Dreams are meant to come true, if only dedication and will is there.
Sorrows are meant to be solved, instead of letting it hunt arround you.
Words are meant to be said, but choose the right words.
Aims are meant to be acheived, with the right goal and decision to make.
LoL.. I keep finding words to keep me dedicated and not letting the pressure pull me down. I am happy that my dota team has been reborned, and our attitudes are awesome for members that never play with each other before. I was impressed by the communication and dedication. Please chun wai dont ruin my dream.
Everyone keeps telling me to just let it go, but why? I rather solve the problem and then let it go. So now at least i have a clear and stable mind. Problem solved.
Sorry Manfer, i dont mean to be so cold and heartless to you. Thanks for covering my ass all the time at work. Love ya. Dont get me wrong, i really do mean what i said to you. Nomatter how hard u might take it, it was honest words from me and the others as well. I did the dirty job to tell u off, but better realize it and change it rather than maintain that same attitude. LOL. Chillex.
Like i said, tomorrow is a start of something new. Lets rock the house.
Dreams are meant to come true, if only dedication and will is there.
Sorrows are meant to be solved, instead of letting it hunt arround you.
Words are meant to be said, but choose the right words.
Aims are meant to be acheived, with the right goal and decision to make.
LoL.. I keep finding words to keep me dedicated and not letting the pressure pull me down. I am happy that my dota team has been reborned, and our attitudes are awesome for members that never play with each other before. I was impressed by the communication and dedication. Please chun wai dont ruin my dream.
Everyone keeps telling me to just let it go, but why? I rather solve the problem and then let it go. So now at least i have a clear and stable mind. Problem solved.
Sorry Manfer, i dont mean to be so cold and heartless to you. Thanks for covering my ass all the time at work. Love ya. Dont get me wrong, i really do mean what i said to you. Nomatter how hard u might take it, it was honest words from me and the others as well. I did the dirty job to tell u off, but better realize it and change it rather than maintain that same attitude. LOL. Chillex.
Like i said, tomorrow is a start of something new. Lets rock the house.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
What a Merdeka day
I come back after work, and i knew that i missed all the fun counting down for Merdeka. LOL. There i saw customers walking in drunked, all dressed up and coming in big groups. What to do, work mah.
Neways, i received this e-mail from a friend, and i loved this story so much. Tought i could quote it here in this blog for more people to see. The story goes:
An amazing Love Story
He met her on a party.
She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he so normal, nobody paid attention to him.
At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him,she was surprised, but due to being polite, she promised.
They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me go home....
suddenly he asked the waiter.. 'would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee.'
Everybody stared at him, so strange!
His face turned red, but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it.
She asked him curiously; why you have this hobby?
He replied: 'when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee.
Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there'.
While saying that tears filled his eyes.
She was deeply touched.
That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart.
A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home.
Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.
They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful.
He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee!
Then the story was just like every beautiful love story , the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life...
And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffeee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.
After 40 years, he passed away,left her a letter which said:
'My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything.. Now I'm dying, I am afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste.. But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life,even though I have to drink the salty coffee again'.
Her tears made the letter totally wet.
Someday, someone asked her: what's the taste of salty coffee? It's sweet. She replied.
Moral,
Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!
Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
~Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
~Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
~Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
~Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
~Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
~Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
~Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
~Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, '...that's her.'
Neways, i received this e-mail from a friend, and i loved this story so much. Tought i could quote it here in this blog for more people to see. The story goes:
An amazing Love Story
He met her on a party.
She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he so normal, nobody paid attention to him.
At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him,she was surprised, but due to being polite, she promised.
They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me go home....
suddenly he asked the waiter.. 'would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee.'
Everybody stared at him, so strange!
His face turned red, but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it.
She asked him curiously; why you have this hobby?
He replied: 'when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee.
Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there'.
While saying that tears filled his eyes.
She was deeply touched.
That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart.
A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home.
Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.
They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful.
He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee!
Then the story was just like every beautiful love story , the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life...
And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffeee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.
After 40 years, he passed away,left her a letter which said:
'My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything.. Now I'm dying, I am afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste.. But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life,even though I have to drink the salty coffee again'.
Her tears made the letter totally wet.
Someday, someone asked her: what's the taste of salty coffee? It's sweet. She replied.
Moral,
Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!
Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
~Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
~Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
~Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
~Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
~Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
~Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
~Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
~Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, '...that's her.'
Friday, August 29, 2008
Here i come
I am here in FTZ doing my team's 1st day training. Haha.. at last i think i got the team that can actualy take over the places of Keisuke, Jin and Bin that has left me for their studies.. sob..
Today is Nick's last day of a student life... tomorrow, he will be a man, working and living on his own money. I imagine how will i feel when i am finally there.. hmm..*
Yay... fun fun fun... i got like 5 new T-shirts given from Penny. Haha... this is a fren lah.. i pay for petrol and toll go fetch her from Airport, there are presents. Do what also worthy lor... Love u babe, thankies.
Hmm, we have happy moments ofcourse, the sadpart is about to come... haiz. FTZBB aka Kelvin, resigned from Ftz.Asia.Net. Damn it, i just talked to him like 4 days ago about the sponsorship to go on for my team. Now that dream seems reachless. Darn it.
Thx Ven, i learned a new word in my head, CAPRICE! yea rite.. tell that to someone u know better.
Today is Nick's last day of a student life... tomorrow, he will be a man, working and living on his own money. I imagine how will i feel when i am finally there.. hmm..*
Yay... fun fun fun... i got like 5 new T-shirts given from Penny. Haha... this is a fren lah.. i pay for petrol and toll go fetch her from Airport, there are presents. Do what also worthy lor... Love u babe, thankies.
Hmm, we have happy moments ofcourse, the sadpart is about to come... haiz. FTZBB aka Kelvin, resigned from Ftz.Asia.Net. Damn it, i just talked to him like 4 days ago about the sponsorship to go on for my team. Now that dream seems reachless. Darn it.
Thx Ven, i learned a new word in my head, CAPRICE! yea rite.. tell that to someone u know better.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Working Days
Its my 4th day of work and its willy's 1st day. LOL.. i came slightly earlier to kacau him. He said it was so boring. Well, suits his nick neways.. he is boringsoboring. Neways... i was thinking, i have only worked like 4 days and i have already collected RM100++. Considering most of the time being used in working and sleeping besides eating, there is almost no where have i been to spend my money. I kinda love this job for that reason. Haha..
Because of the weird working hours.. i've been rudely awaken by phone calls during the morning sleep. Damn it.. i need my rest people.. be considerate. Yesterday, i got a phone call from INTi college, telling me that i have to send in the unit outlines. I was like AGAIN!!! WTF? I send to u guys twice.. WTF! slammed the phone. Wahaha..
Shit maybe gonna be classmates with Daidai.. GG!
Early this morning, we went to puchong to cheak out some new mamaks and new hang out areas. Well, i personally loved the food there, but the service sucks.. haha. It was a guys day out, and i was clearly relaxed and calm. Well, despite the shit that i was going through, i think i managed my feelings pretty well. *proud*
I had a talk with Blake, and something accured in my head. I really do understand now.
What happens if you care so much for a person? Your intentions and everything was good, but y does it always ended up with quarelling and argueing? Even hate might come to the picture. Well, this is very subjective really, but I personally went through a rough picture and reserch on families arround me, and i discovered that most children feels irritated and tired of listening to their parents. I personally admit this, i kinda hate my parents for telling me what to do and all. LOL...
Then i tought, who loves us more than our own 2 parents? They are the 2 most caring person to u than anybody else in this entire world. But y does this "CARING" repays with bullshit from the other party? Y does human beings rather be stubborn and learn things the hard way? Hmm.. thinking bout it, i find being a human being in this life is the repayment of KARMA or SINs. Cause what more are we having than suffering? LOL.. well this is just my tought. Comments will be accepted. Haha...
Because of the weird working hours.. i've been rudely awaken by phone calls during the morning sleep. Damn it.. i need my rest people.. be considerate. Yesterday, i got a phone call from INTi college, telling me that i have to send in the unit outlines. I was like AGAIN!!! WTF? I send to u guys twice.. WTF! slammed the phone. Wahaha..
Shit maybe gonna be classmates with Daidai.. GG!
Early this morning, we went to puchong to cheak out some new mamaks and new hang out areas. Well, i personally loved the food there, but the service sucks.. haha. It was a guys day out, and i was clearly relaxed and calm. Well, despite the shit that i was going through, i think i managed my feelings pretty well. *proud*
I had a talk with Blake, and something accured in my head. I really do understand now.
What happens if you care so much for a person? Your intentions and everything was good, but y does it always ended up with quarelling and argueing? Even hate might come to the picture. Well, this is very subjective really, but I personally went through a rough picture and reserch on families arround me, and i discovered that most children feels irritated and tired of listening to their parents. I personally admit this, i kinda hate my parents for telling me what to do and all. LOL...
Then i tought, who loves us more than our own 2 parents? They are the 2 most caring person to u than anybody else in this entire world. But y does this "CARING" repays with bullshit from the other party? Y does human beings rather be stubborn and learn things the hard way? Hmm.. thinking bout it, i find being a human being in this life is the repayment of KARMA or SINs. Cause what more are we having than suffering? LOL.. well this is just my tought. Comments will be accepted. Haha...
Friday, August 15, 2008
Condolences
I was back in Subang cause i cant get a job in Genting. *sigh*
The news came to me about 3 days after i was back here. Ebby aka Daniel Teoh, has passed away from a car accident.
He was a friend, teammate and a very smart son. Rest in peace my friend. We love u!
Well, life for us still go on, tomorrow will be my Granpa's bday. Yippie, free food! haha.. then i am starting work in Autsurf on Sunday. Hmm.. i hope the job as a partimer is harder.. cause i really want to keep myself occupied.
Wow, Cheryl change hair style de... she look so damn hot now. Damn it turns me on.. LOL!
Well, as promised to my parents, girls arent my priority now. I have to maintain my grades as i was a big disapointment to the family! Well, i will try my best not to let u all down! love u dad and mum!
Go Gary u can do it!
The news came to me about 3 days after i was back here. Ebby aka Daniel Teoh, has passed away from a car accident.
He was a friend, teammate and a very smart son. Rest in peace my friend. We love u!
Well, life for us still go on, tomorrow will be my Granpa's bday. Yippie, free food! haha.. then i am starting work in Autsurf on Sunday. Hmm.. i hope the job as a partimer is harder.. cause i really want to keep myself occupied.
Wow, Cheryl change hair style de... she look so damn hot now. Damn it turns me on.. LOL!
Well, as promised to my parents, girls arent my priority now. I have to maintain my grades as i was a big disapointment to the family! Well, i will try my best not to let u all down! love u dad and mum!
Go Gary u can do it!
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